>> Saturday, May 5, 2012
It supposed to be assignment's allocated time right now. Screw it, my blood pressure has given her warning for me to stop, after three days on this chair, in front of this day-by-day-to-be-obsolete laptop.
I don't know if I can give commitment to everything right now. I know there are people who are busier than me, the Prime Minister, the mother, the directors, the president of NASA, the carpenters, bla bla bla. They are all busier than me. I know. Instead of blaming this abundant of assignments, Im blaming myself - the capability of my neurons which already stuck with no electricity charge to transfer all the infos and ideas. I'm stuck.
And at this moment, i'm rewinding my not-this-busy-but-happy-moments (or can we call irresponsible time) in previous month - the travel in business time. i think i prefer to live that way compared to getting a title with no intention to work in that area. am i wasting my time now? too late to say that. this is what i have chosen, on January 2012.
yes, i am that person, who want to succeed in everything. i will cry if i didnt achieve something, which scared my mom sometimes. i'll cry if i didnt get straight A's in my school days, i'll cry if i didnt get in the university which my friends could, even i dont want to take the course. i cried because i didnt win the Handwriting Competition during Standard 1.hmm.
oh. i wish i can type this awesomely fast on my research paper. two chapter left, oh neuron please start your engine.
let's refresh the happiness back in Bangkok. maybe this can help.
time torestart and continue with the paper.