>> Tuesday, August 21, 2012
i wish i were not in 2012. just eliminate the memories of these 2 weeks, please.
emotionally and mentally crumbled. August came with one by one tests. i don't want to go through this. i kept reminiscing the old time to at least give me a cheer. but time won't come back. time flows.
came back home with this messy scenes, i wonder how can i fix it. try not to think about it for a while. i guess all movies i watched were right. i will believe them from now on. all the tragedies, controversies, the dark side of the world, all came from human stories. 7 billion population of human in Earth, could make to 7 billion different life stories. if the stories to be interpreted into wall painting, i don't know if this world has enough space to offer.
i always believe behind a bad act, there's always a reason, a story that relates to it. but i can't tolerate with drugs matters no matter what the reason is. it shouldnt be a choice in someone's life.
it hurts to watch everything crumbles. the misunderstanding, the hatred, the unspoken truth, and the fear to move on. being threaten by the fools, fools that know nothing about the price of a life. that would do anything just to live in their dirty world. i hate watching the tears and every conflict appeared.
being alone in the day you should celebrate, feels terrible. running man couldnt help me at that time. tried to have a gateway to get a breeze for one day. but coming back home, with that screaming sound outside and the strangers eyes on your home is terrifying.
be strong in outside and in word are easy. just type in the word i'm strong, and people will believe you are. amazed. feels inspired from it. really?